Phoenix Camelback Hospital

My Roommate

By Vonia Martin

Way back in the mid 80s my adopted momster sent me to mental institutions in her quest to be rid of me. It was a problem because other then the fact that she just got married there was no other reason. Her and her new husband didn’t want to hurt their sterling reputations so the conspired to rid themselves of me. With any luck they will make it appear to be my decision. Lucky them, putting one over on a foster kid, that has got to be a new low for educated society. No? If not , it should be. 

People that adopt a child should not be allowed to give them back just because they met someone and they don’t want the child for what ever reason. It should not be allowed especially when the child is only a few years from adulthood. 

My adopted momster institutionalized me for years before she was allowed to disown me but no one not one person spoke to me about it or what I wanted. The courts really fucked me on the whole deal but now I am back and ready to prove that it was her that made the mistake of disowning me for someone who only wanted your money. Can’t you see that he has none of his own so you are the only way for him to leave anything for his children but first he has to rid you of me. With an heir you would have no reason to leave his children anything and since he didn’t work to leave his kids something he depends on you to do so. You don’t even care as long as you didn’t have to be alone. Well, he more then earned your money he made sure he wouldn’t go to me. 

After everything I’ve been through with you and your empty promises, my real momster and her  child molesting ways, then the joyful foster care system, then being institutionalized, then being disowned and raped by the family that was suppose to protect me, it is a wonder I haven’t gone postal. Or is that what you are pushing for? Get it over with, no one goes through this much and survives unscathed. 

Yet there is no where for me to turn no one I can count on. Not even my momster who adopted me and looked me up 35 years later because she is so terrified of being alone she uses me again to insure her husband’s children will care for her after he dies. 

All it costs her was a car, all it casts me was my soul.

Congratulations, you win. 

Anyway, to my roommate, I am so sorry I tried to Jack your shirts. I should have told your mom she forgot them but I wanted them so I said nothing and I am sorry. You didn’t deserve that and please forgive me. Thank you in advance.

Vonia Martin

SocietySucks

EspeciallyFredrick, CO.

By Vonia Martin. Copyright 2023

Not too long ago I worked for the little liquor store here in town. For some reason, no for a reason they paid me under the table, meaning they took nothing out in taxes or social security. I know they did not pay the gentleman that worked for them at the same time because I saw them had him a pay roll check. 

What I believe happened is that my “boyfriend” convinced him to do it this way 

so I wouldn’t have enough of a return to leave his ass. He probably paid the $985 it costs to file with the government when I had claimed 0 on my W2. 

I have no evidence to prove this suspicion except my checks and a few things my boss said that could not come from anyone other than my “boyfriend”. What it is that he tells people to get them to do these things is beyond me, other than money.

There is nothing I have done, I was a good employee, that would warrant this behavior yet here we are. People do love to hate me and all I have to do is show up.

This may sound paranoid and maybe I am but I swear me “boyfriend” wants to keep me dependent on him so I can’t get away.

Gluttony

Minimize The Government

I get that we have all these government agencies to protect us from ourselves but who is protecting us from our government? They want us to believe they know what is best for us when in fact they know nothing.

They are not what is best for us. We are suppose to be able to protect ourselves against any outside or inside threat. Lately, the police are as bad as mass shooters. I refer to them as legal criminals. Criminals that are legally committing crimes against its most vulnerable citizens, minorities. As a society we condone this behavior because we think it works, when in fact it is holding us back as a society. If we were really conscious we would stop this deployable behavior and really help those in need. They have been screaming for help for so long we don’t even hear their screams any more. 

The truth is quiet unless it is being ignored then it becomes what ever it has to be to get heard. If that means yelling at the top of my lungs so be it, I will yell.  If it means sacrificing myself for the truth so be it. All I want is to make life better for my people. My people are anyone who has ever been in the foster care system. Anyone who has been institutionalized including prison. Anyone who is homeless or incarcerated, any non violent criminal is my sister or brother. Some of you violent ones are too but I condemn any violence acted against another who is not violent themself.

Leave Trump alone, we had laws in place to keep our formal leaders out of jail. If we do this to him we have to go back as far as they are alive and press charges against all of them too because they can’t serve in office without breaking some laws. It’s why we exempt them while they are in office. Don’t misunderstand me, I am not condoning what he did but other presidents have done worse. Biden you to pardon him.

Earth

OurOnlyParent

By V. Martin

If we’re not careful we will be orphaned and if that happens, if it hasn't already, we are all dead.  We have to protect the few wild animals we have left, above all else because if we don’t we are all dead. We need to manage our snow better because it is an opportunity to control water, saving it in its frozen state where the sun doesn’t shine. We could even pack the snow into shipping container and place them in areas that are at a high fire danger and let it slowly melt keeping the ground moist. 

I’m just brain storming, trying to come up with viable ideas to help end global warming. Some of them might not pan out but all we need is one great idea to turn things around.  Like, how we can safely phase out nuclear power plants. If we could stop thinking that nuclear power is a clean alternative to cole or oil because it’s not.  The nuclear people brag about this power being emissions free when in fact it emits heat and nuclear waste, that we have no idea what to do with.  So far we have been able to avoid a full on melt down but not Russia and Japan both are still dealing with the fallout from those melt downs. Chernobyl alone should have had us stopping in our tracks and looking for a more user friendly energy source.  Nuclear power plants use water towers to cool the nuclear rods, this in itself is an emission, heat. What do we think they do with this water?  Put right back in their a water supply and we have been doing this for 50-70 years this alone could be raising the ocean’s temperature. Water is one of the ways earth cools itself and now that we have raised its temperature the rest of the planet followed. 

Biden needs to lead the way in sustainable energy like the jet stream, we know where it is and which way they run. We need to find a way to tap into their power. Also lightening, there is so much power in lightening we need to figure out how to harness this power because it happens all over the world all the time.  Why or whose bright idea was it to make wind turbines big?  This is not necessary but a great example of how we think, America, where everything is bigger, more powerful, blah blah blah blah.

Dams have got to go!  They are preventing water to flow freely, like it was intended.  Damming doesn’t save us from floods, they help create them.  I have said this before, water is planet earth’s blood and if you block her blood flow parts are going to eventually fall off and help in global warming. There i a direct connection to the temp of the ocean and the brake down of the plastics floating in it.  I have a question; why doesn’t the military clean that mess up?  They are certainly more capable to do so, so please do.

The government needs to make our planet a priority and needs to lead the way, oh no wait, other countries are doing that, not us. We have been in bed with oil industry so long that we don’t know where it begins and we end. The rest of the world already knows what idiots we are, it’s not a secret.  Biden, I know you have the balls to put the oil industry in its place; our rear view, please do so.  The power companies also, need to be down sized moving away from nuclear power and gas powered plants as well. What we need to do is phase out power plants all together.  As individuals we need to take on more power responsibility, sustainable power eventually phasing out all those ugly dangerous wires that are live with electricity.  We never needed to do things the way we did and we need to admit that and get on with doing things differently.  

I would love to experiment with finding more sustainable power sources for which I have a few ideas.  My roommate keeps reminding me that I am a no body so no one is going to listen to me and my dumb ideas.  I am okay with that as long as my dumb ideas lead the really smart people to find the answer. If nothing else they can quickly determine if they have any value or not.  We brain storm to think up all kinds of crazy answers, no matter ho off the wall because as we do that we talk ourselves to look at the logical applications of an idea tweaking it along the way until we have a working model to experiment with.  The more I am able to follow an idea to its bitter end or is awe inspiring start the more other ideas come to light.

If we don’t start doing things differently now we are all going to die.  No one seems too interested in this idea even though it’s the only to save ourselves.  Why are we so reluctant to make changes on a global scale in order to save ourselves?  Are we waiting for the apocalypse before we try to save ourselves because if we are it will be too late.  

WiggingOut

 Wigs

By Vonia Martin

If you’re anything like me your hair starting falling out around age 50. Luckily, I had a massive amount of hair so now I have probably an average amount of hair but still nothing like I used to have. The problem with wigs is that they are so hot! If I wear one for even a short period of time I get way over heated and have to rip it off before I pass out. The main reason they are so hot is all my hair gathered in a bun with a nylon cap pulled over it, then the wig on top of that. So I decided to put a bunch of holes in the wig and that helped a little. Then I remembered back in the day they had these hair frosting kits that came with a plastic cap with a bunch of holes so you can pull your own hair through to frost. I cut small holes in the wig and took a croquette needle with the hook end I put through the holes and hooked some of my hair and pulled it through the holes. GAME CHANGER!!!! Not only is the wig cooler it is more secure using your own hair to anchor it to your head, you can even brush it without it coming off.

I just know that the movie and TV industries will love this wig. Not to mention the theatre and transgender people. Anyone who wants a fuller head of hair or wants streaks but doesn’t want to dye their own hair. They are really cool and won’t fall off or be pulled off and without glue or clips.

IsMyShitEvenOnline?

 AlgorithmsAreHateful

By V. Martin copyright 2023

Not too long ago, I emailed or posted a request to Bill Gates that his algorithms are limiting the people that are most limited already, making it almost impossible for us to get anywhere in the world. Then recently I saw a program on PBS talking about the fact that that is the case. Only she was referring to her people, chocolate colored or just people of color. Of course, I was referring to my people no one’s people, foster people or people without families. Trust me, if you don’t have a family you are no one in this world. When the internet and computers came out, I thought great, finally a place my people can go and be someone. A place where they judge you on your work not your personality or lack there of but on your thinking and ideas. A place where they can’t steal your ideas from you once it is posted online but that is only if you are really online and people can find you online. 

I believe I blog and blog and nothing. Some people may have access but most do not. I say this because I have looked and searched online for an idea I have had, to make sure it wasn’t someone else’s already. When nothing came back I hurried and posted it only for it to not be posted but now belongs to someone else. So either Google is holding onto my blogs in order to steal my ideas or there is an algorithm working against me because it can. 

A year or two ago I saw a commercial online about a bracelet from one of the big jewelry stores that was my idea like 25 plus years ago. So I got online and looked myself up and lo and behold someone with my name had died the day before. So that’s why they were advertising my bracelet because they thought I was dead. So, oh that’s right I blogged about it because I was already suspicious that the internet was working against me. It sucks because companies outlive us all but ideas are forever. What sucks even more is that there is nothing I can do about it and they know it. When you have no family there is little anyone wants to do with you accept to steal from you so as a rule you have very little.  You learn to act stupid so they won’t steal your ideas but you always slip. No it’s not that you slip its just that it doesn’t occur to you that someone would steal someone else’s idea. You mistakenly think this excludes you but it doesn’t.

Most recently, I have had to file for unemployment and it too is rigged against people like me. It is such a circle jerk and by the time you realize it your whole day is gone. They, the unemployment people or algorithm, keeps denying me for one reason or another making it impossible for me to get anywhere let alone receive unemployment. I have been working since I was 15 years old paying into these safe guards the whole time only to be denied at age 54 for insurance I need to pay my bills and eat. 

I didn’t plan on getting fired after I put my two week notice in but that is what happened and they won’t approve my unemployment. It has already been almost three months with no money and my savings is gone. They really don’t want to approve my claim. They state on their website that I am responsible for asking for unemployment every week even if you are not approved or ineligible except there is no way to do so. I have gone over and over all the qualifications and can’t understand why they haven’t given me the money, which isn’t even enough for someone to pay rent with. It’s my money why do I have to beg for it? 

What happens to the money if I’m never approved for it? Do they put it towards your funeral when you die? Or do they give it as part of your estate? No! They keep it to give it to someone else that they deem more deserving than you.

I call that stealing just like all insurance, legalized theft. Paying, in advance, for shit that may never happen and when it doesn’t happen they just keep all that money, leaving poor people poorer. Of course, poor people’s insurance rates are much higher because, you guessed it, because they are poor. It’s just another way they get your money for nothing. 

If this denial has something to do with IHOP and the fact that I did a no call no show it’s because the manager embarrassed me in front of the whole restaurant. He implied that I was incapable of doing my job and proceeded to wait on a large table himself, rather than help me do my job in a more efficient, timely manner. Everyone in the restaurant heard him tell the cooks that he would be waiting on the big top table because it was better than letting V do it, to another employee he said this. Other employees had been bullying me and making fun of me and I ignored it because I got the sense, from the manager, my complaints would go unheard. So, I didn’t bother to show up. Not only that they wanted me to be a manager which I didn’t want to do and told them so the first time but I gave in the second time. Mostly I didn’t want to because I would have to work nights and I just don’t drive as well at night because it’s harder to see. I mean I can drive at night but I don’t like to because I have a hard time seeing.

InflationAndMinimumWage

 GoHandAndHand

  By V. Martin copyright 2023

      Why do we think companies are going to be willing to make less money by paying their employees 

 more?  It’s just not going to happen, so every time minimum wage goes up, so do all the prices to off set 

The “losses” companies fore see due to having to pay their employees more because it doesn’t just stop                   

with minimum wage earners. In this case we expect water to run up hill, defying gravity and all known physics and order of all things, shit runs down hill, not up. Why would people knowingly now make minimum wage when they made above that the day before? Or continue to let someone who made minimum wage the year before make more then you now? Why? So the company can maintain its bottom line and the poverty gap narrows? Who’s falling for this bullshit? 

     In my opinion inflation is out of control because minimum wage is increasing on a schedule the next few years and companies want to get ahead of this never mind all the expense of going green. Any reason to keep the poor right where they have always been, making money for the 1%. It’s pretty fucking obvious, if truth be told, anything to get our money for nothing. What do we need it for anyway? Look what we spend the little bit we get? Booze and pot? Why? To forget what slaves we all still are? There is another way. 

     Bitcoin is a start but it’s ultimately following in the dollars footsteps. Monetary dynamics are at its end. 

It’s just not sustainable nor is its ill gotten gains. We are raping and pillaging our only parent, Mother Earth. Our fathers only saw an endless supply of natural resources their families and friends could cash in on and boy have they. Unfortunately, they have left nothing but death, destruction, and diseases in their wake. Their companies and families will out live us mere mortals so to make sure they always have the upper hand they will always out live any one person with a few good marketable ideas. They can hear everything we say, they can see everything we type and text so they can sell us things we don’t really need. But they need our money so they tell us what to buy and now with subscriptions they know what we are going to buy and when and how much and what to sell us next before we even know we need it. CRAZY. 

     Most of the shit we have to have is just that SHIT! If I can’t take it with me when I die, do I really need it? Or even better still is it really mine? I came into this world with nothing and we all go out the same way and everything in between, other than the experience itself, is all borrowed and doesn’t belong to any of us. I know some of us will be irresponsible and immature enough to want to use and abuse ( rape and pillage) so they get their fair share of what’s left. You know this is all she has left to sustain, we don’t even know how many can remain without harming her anymore, she will decide that. I think she is holding out as long as she can with the hope we will pull our heads out of our asses and stop with the greed. Greed is not good, greed is ugly, selfish, unsustainable, and stupid. People with money should only have the upper hand in that they get to decide what world problem they want to fund and solve for the good of all man kind.

     It is our duty to help those weaker than ourselves, honor is the reward for serving them. What is more humble than that? What act more gracious? Yet I am told by those closest I lack both. Yet their examples are lacking to produce a working model of any of the traits they say I lack duty, honor, humility, and grace. My response is always the same; be the example not the exception. What I really believe is going on they themselves are lacking and instead of working on themselves they try to tear me down. What they fail to realize is that there is no further down then where I’m already at, except six feet under. Have you ever tried to tear something down lower than yourself? Not so easy. So do you step down or raise everything up first?