BecauseSobrietySucks!
by V. Martin
Once again I'm going to attempt to go on the pot wagon. What's the big deal you ask? Let's see, I'm a 53 year old stoner whose gone a whole 21 days pot free in the past 35 years so it's a big deal for me. The only down fall is that I turn to alcohol to get through the day and most importantly the night. The nights are the worst mainly because I can't sleep for the first couple of sober weeks. It sucks so I drink margaritas and these are the writings that come from my drunkin state of being.
Most likely I will offend everyone who reads this so let me say I'm sorry now in advance. Please don't take me too seriously no matter how serious the subject is. My soul purpose is to stir the pot(not bowl), get people thinking like I do and maybe someone will get who I am. If not I remain ungotten. Really, I'm not that complicated but the problems of today are its my goal to simplify them so we can change them into something that works. It's so much easier to envision problems as solutions that haven't found the problem they were made to solve yet, that is where we come in. Nothing should be wasted not even ideas.
For me pot solved a lot of problems when I couldn't. As a child in the foster care system I learned to use different strategies to cope with the fucked up shit going on in my life. The life I was told to be grateful for when all I wanted to do was die. The only thing that has kept me from killing myself is the fact that I think everyone wants me to, no expects me to. FUCK THAT! Here I will stay as long as I can, no matter the shit that happens to me. Not only will I live I will do it the best way that I can by showing no outward signs of the hell I've been through. Society may want me to kill myself for fear it will have to support me eventually if not all my life. My people are not expected to be much more then a burden on society because we are written off as damaged goods. What is going to be right about these kids without any people of their own there for have no value what so ever. Shame on all of us!!!! This I will stand for no more! My people maybe the lowest of the low but that means there is only one direction to go; up.
You may not know me but my people do and I know them, I love them without even knowing their names. They are out there some where, on the streets in every city, living in card board boxes and tents, or in prisons or jail. Please stay alive, don't let society win you have value you have people. All of us unwanted people need to stick together because together we are no longer alone, we have each other! Why not? Don't we deserve the same as everyone else? Obviously not, we deserve even better then that, we are better then that! Society is the one that is wrong about us but what were we suppose to do? When given an opportunity to be of service we jumped on it. Only it isn't all society could come up with for us disposable people to contribute is to be a scape goat, someone to put the blame on. No one listens to them when they deny doing what they are being blamed for so they stop denying. No one cares that the guilty are left to commit more crimes on society. Finally, the disposable people stop trying to save society from its self because its simply not worth saving.
As someone with no parents or family(actually I met my family in my 20s) I have no value so what am I still doing here? I guess its so in the end I can say "I told you so!"
Like the birds, where in the hell are all the birds that use to chirp so loud you could hear them in space? I use to get woken up every day I left my window open they were so loud, all day long. Now, nothing. No bugs either, I guess if you have nothing to eat you're going to die. Driving on the freeway use to make my windshield covered with the carcusus of all kinds of bugs. Now none splatter my windshield. Could it just be the high speeds we drive at, well only if that is the only speed we drive at and it isn't but still no bugs.
If we don't start making some major changes we are all going to die and it has already started. Not only are we going to die but this whole planet will die along with us. The corona virus maybe Devine intervention making us stay home so we can't continue to pollute and hurt Mother Earth. Maybe it's the world wide web that invented this virus to save us from ourselves because we won't? Even if we didn't cause global warming, for arguements sake, we still need to try to stop it or even better reverse it some. Soon there won't be any animals to save even the ones in our zoos will struggle to stay alive. Eventually it won't matter and it will be too late, hell it may already be too late. So wake up people it will take all of us to save ourselves and what remaining animals there are.
Please, please stop fishing for at least a year and those big cruise ships need to figure something else to do. Our oceans are dying and we keep poking it with a cattle prod not wanting to believe what is really happening. Pull your head out of your ass, please and thank you.
The government needs to pull its head out of our asses and do something for our better good. We need this planet it is the only one we have so stop treating it like we have many spares to replace it with. WE DO NOT! Nothing should be produced that kills anything! No poisons should be allowed on this planet except those that are natural. We must promote life not kill it, I don't care if it kills people, we can always make more people but earth is one of a kind and the only one we have. All these chemical killers do just that kill not only what it's intended to kill but every thing else that happens to be in the wrong place at the time. Or if a breeze comes along to carry the poison to who knows were hurting who knows what or who. More and more people are confused about who or what they are especially their sexual orientation, has anyone else wondered why? Well I have and I blame bug and weed killers getting into our water, air, and food supply. They may not be killing us right off but they are affecting our DNA and brain functions not to mention our mental health. Rachel Carson stopped short of connecting these dots or did she? It was obvious to me that was where she was headed but unfortunately died before she could. Not only do these poisons get on our food because we spray it directly on it these poisons get into our water supply and who knows if we are able to filter it all out because we are not testing our water for them.
We should not be looking for energy that takes energy to produce! Duh! Real clean energy exists with or without us. Real clean energy is free and there in lies our problem. Some people on our planet only care about themselves and the unholy dollar. Energy whores make us pay for something that is in abundance all around us and yet they charge us for dirty expensive energy that is killing everything. Our government needs to take responsibility for giving us no choice and for not listening to the scientists when they warned us of this. Well here we are and we still do very little to ensure our childrens future. I think they know they are fucked and that it is our fault for not doing anything different because we are simply too fucking lazy. Our kids know this they see our lack of action and figure we just don't think they are worth saving. We aren't you know? Anybody who would rather do nothing because they believe devine intervention will save us all is a fool unless it comes in the form of a virus.
Maybe the sunomi happened to make room for the melting glacier water. Whatever the cause it won't be enough. How do I know you ask? I just do. For one I have a brain and deductive reasoning.
No I'm not drunk yet but needed to get this down to compare my drunk writing to. So I'm pissing you off on purpose, I admit it, we need to get mad if that is what it will take to make the changes needed to save us all but mostly this planet.
I mean really, who do we think we are anyway? We can't take the planet with us when we go but the least we can do is leave it better then what we found it. BETTER, BITCHES! Not worse dumb asses! Who in the fuck ever thought that raping and pilfering the land and its inhabitants not just our right but our duty was a mother fucker! Our forefathers weren't the sharpest pencils in the box. Slavery alone proves that so why are we still following there misguided attempt at equality when it left out every race but white? Has anyone thought that maybe it's time to rewrite our constitution? How outdated and unfair does this document need to get before we realize we can do better. Admend it all you want it still promotes wealth and happiness to one race and at the expense of all others. Hate and prejudice will never change to empathy and understanding as long as we follow the directions of people that thought nothing through. Our justice system was made up by a bunch of criminals and extreme religious people. Religion loves criminals they make up the majority of their followers and no one follows better then an ex convict. Criminals have been using religion to cover up their crimes for as long as religion has been around. I'm convinced we invented religion for that very reason. A place criminals can commit crime and not get caught because its done in gods name. Our government allows for this because its already so over whelmed with crime and laws that protect the criminals that can afford it. Did I forget to mention our justice system is for the guilty with enough money to buy their way out of trouble. I mean who couldn't convince one of twelve people of reasonable doubt? Any decent attorney. The wealthy know this. They know they can get away with anything given enough money to defend themselves. They know to not talk to the police because they have a lawyer on retainer. The rest of us never think to ask for our lawyer because we don't think of public defenders as lawyers but they are.
If you ever find yourself incarcerated ask for your public defender and keep your mouth shut, especially if you are guilty, the system is for you if you work it right even if you are poor.
Please don't judge me on how I look, I had nothing to do with it.
