NoOne

But A Loser

By Vonia Martin 2024

There is nothing more discouraging then myself especially when I apply for writing work and I get it but don’t know because I don’t check my email for two months. Who needs enemies, right? Even if I didn’t expect to get it, which I didn’t, I could have at least checked. In my mind that means I must not want out of this fucked up situation that bad and it’s that bad. I want someone to swoop in and save me but I don’t want to save myself. 

That is just not fair! I don’t know how to do this because no one has ever showed me how. All I know how to do is sacrifice myself which I do on a regular basis and everyone around me lets me.